Limerence

Limerence is sometimes also referred to as infatuation. In common speech, infatuation includes aspects of immaturity and extrapolating from insufficient information, and is usually short-lived. This part of my story is a bit forward in time, a bit too forward in time. I didn't want to write a yearly memo of my life, I wanted to include those that are too close to my heart.

Infatuation, chronic infatuation, propably due to intense affection that I recieved from everyone, or propably due to the fact that I am one of those people that have the god Emor in them. The ability to make someone pay attention to me or want to know me a little more. Intimidation as one of my victims called it.

Some of you might be lost, or just can't understand. I'll explain some of those moments that I can remember-

I watched her walking on the sand, the beach was lit with golden rays of the sunset. Her face was shining, illuminated by this vibrant dusk. I never felt like this before in my life, I couldn't stop looking at her. So, I approached her, and stood there numb. She smiled, my heart rose and I gained the courage to say " Hi ! ". We had a 5 year long relationship, broken only to the fact that I had to respond to the complex social question and irresponsible family relationship. 5 long year wouldn't be an infatuation. I have no explainations. Sorry

I did'nt feel down nor did I felt any heartache. Things took a different turn just a week later after the broke up. I thank democracy, respect our right to strike, to halt daily life in order to raise demand. I don't remember what the strike was for, but I knew that there were no mode of transpportation except school buses, and I was to old to sit with primary school children. So, I decided to walk, thats when I met her. One look, that was all to rise the inner Krishna in me. This time, the girl came up to me and asked me if I could walk her to school. We lasted two years.

I'll post my other infatuations later on. keep reading.